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Dear Oggy, it's the same new day. Nothing changes, it's the 2nd day of Ramadan. I try to listen more khutbah on Youtube, just to fill my time during this blessed month. Sometimes I listen, most of the time I let my mind wanders, like when I attended my classes in the university.

At least I try something new. At least I try to fill my time with something good. I hope so.

I am also thinking about buying Tesla's stock. Some said it's going to become like Apple, but well, who knows what's going to happen. XRP is doing great, but I think many will sell so the price may drop. My aim is $1000, that's going to take some time. Maybe 2 years, but I don't want to work that long. Or maybe it won't even reach $100, but I don't want to think too much. I already have so many things on my mind.

I miss you, Oggy. It's hard to feel warm and happy again. Nothing seems right, my mood swings easily. I pity my family and I love them too, but I wish I stay far from them so they won't have to deal with my shit.

Anyway, let's try again tomorrow. 

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