katarasa

I genuinely feel afraid. Just yesterday I wrote about motivation and fear and today I let myself fall into the pit of fear. Yes, currently I'm afraid I'll lose someone. I don't know if it's going to happen tomorrow or next week or next month. I. Am. Afraid. I can't stop feeling worried.

I never dream to live this long and become an adult. I thought my dad would live forever and I would always be a kid. It's kinda a naive thought. But wishes do not last. My appointment tomorrow is postponed because the developer's lawyer hasn't done preparing the documents. I am not kidding, I cannot wait to move to my own home. But it is going to be very tiring. Plus I need to count and balance my daily expenses, no more travelling until God knows when. But I have to be responsible. And I am glad I make my mom happy about it. Confession, she still has no idea my mortgage has passed. Haha. Next phase, I don't know what else.

I am so sleepy right now. I am just trying to see if blogger is better than wix. But I think blogger is better for writers like me. Though wix is cool too.